Waiting

The other day I asked God to yell at me.  Give me a clear cut sign, show me what I am supposed to be doing.  Show me the path you want me and my family on.

I feel like I'm in limbo, just here, just waiting for that sign or answer.  It's an interesting place to be and a subject that has come up a lot this week. 

Women's bible study was all about the potter and the clay.  Who am I to yell at the potter and tell him what I am?

That tells me, even though I'm waiting, God is still watching. 

Is he just waiting for his right moment?  That  moment that will give him the most glory, or is he waiting to see what I'll do.  He knows already of course and he knows me. 

I am a perverse creature, sometimes I really like to take the long hard way.  I think I just get more satisfaction at the end, I feel like I've accomplished more somehow. 

However, I'm sick of it.  I am tired of the drama of it, I am tired of fighting for everything, I'm tired of banging my head against brick walls.  Oy. Vey. 

Why not just take the easy way and LISTEN to what God is telling me?

That's the hard part about waiting, I am and always have been very impatient.  My first inclination, if I'm not getting the answer I want, is to do whatever I want.  To go my way.  This is why I take the long hard road. 

So, maybe it's about what I do WITH the waiting time.

This song is the other reason that waiting has been at the forefront of my mind.  Every time I start to get impatient it just pops into my head. 

What am I going to do with my waiting time? 

I am going to worship, I am going to serve, I am going to OBEY what my Father is telling me and wait.  I am going to keep praying and keep reading my bible, keep doing those things that draw me closer to him, instead of giving up like I normally do. 

I WILL NOT FADE